Once Again

Once again, we’re here

Taking chances, taking risks

With no certainty to hold, not a clue

Not even a single glimpse of tomorrow

And not even an idea;

How do I stop thinking?

How do I know?

Am I doing it right?

Or does it just feel right?

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Once again, I’m asking questions

Questions that can only be answered if I take a leap of faith;

And once again, it’s faith that’s yet to be tested,

And I don’t know.

I don’t know what to believe.

I don’t know how to believe.

I don’t know when to believe.

All I know is that once again, I’m inside this room,

A colorless room without corners.

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Where do we go?

Do I have to take your hand, even though you’re unknown?

Do I have to run away and just leave you alone?

Do I have to go to your direction?

Do I have to make my own way?

Once, I was lost

But once again, I am found;

I just don’t want to lose myself once again,

Not anymore.

Trust

The world is pushing me

to doubt you

and to question

your faithfulness,

but my mind says otherwise

and my heart agrees:

How could I

be skeptical

with everything you do

when you always

put me first

over you?