Enraptured Reality

Phantasm. Bewilderment. Clairvoyance.


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2019 Randomly Today Vol. 1

Apparently, I haven’t written any post for the Randomly Today series for 2018, so I guess this serves as a reset of wanting to update what I’ve been into lately.

Writing

this post! I came across a blog that made me feel like it’s time to have another entry under this tag. The last time I wrote one was 2017.

Listening

to the sound of the air-conditioner and random voices sharing stories, although I’ve been LSSed to Game of Thrones intro since last night. The final episode aired yesterday and my heart is still on a high knowing that one of the greatest series I’ve ever watched has already ended. Special thanks to my boyfriend for introducing this series to me! I claim to be a late bloomer, because I haven’t binge-watched all the previous episodes until 2016!

Thinking

about my Law School dream. I’m officially done with second year in my Postgraduate Diploma in Computer Science. I still have three subjects to deal with on my third year before I could write PGD after my name.

I initially planned on taking Masters of Development Communication and Doctor of Communication afterwards, but after realizing that it’s gonna take me at least six years to be an MDC-DComm, my first dream came into picture once again. I still believe that Law School is for me, and 2020 will be the year to begin my journey of becoming an Atty. Let’s claim it!

Hoping

for my colds to go away! I’ve already been drinking plenty of warm water to stop this. I can’t have my nose running on my beach trip this weekend! Fast-forward to Friday, please!

Wearing

a green long-sleeved turtleneck and black pants. It’s a basic kind of Tuesday.

Wanting

for the weekend to come soon! I’ll be going to Calaguas and Naga for a beach trip and for my boyfriend’s niece’s birthday. I can’t wait for this quick vacation! Talk about not dealing with numbers for four days.

Needing

a gym break. I have to let myself rest and heal because I really want my colds to go away asap. Although I feel sad about skipping the gym for the next days, I have to. 😦

 

I am sincerely hoping that this wouldn’t be the first and last for 2019. 🙂 Hope you’re doing well! xx

Randomly Today series is inspired by siddarhornton‘s The Sunday Currently.

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Seeking Purpose

Lost is an understatement.

2019, so far, is full of realisations. Thankfully, my anxiety has been friendly and I haven’t had any major attack yet, and little by little, I am beginning to figure what I really want, or at least what I want at the moment.

Adulthood is a process I am both lucky and unlucky to go through. At this point, I have made the questions where am I supposed to be? What do I want? Why am I still here? How do I escape? And many more questions that I can’t seem to find the answer. But maybe adulthood isn’t really about finding the answers, rather asking more, until you find it.

To be honest, I can’t feel any fulfillment with what I am doing right now. Maybe it’s too stiff. Maybe it’s not the right place for me. Maybe I’m just not used to it. Maybe I’m just bored. Maybe, maybe… Maybe. It’s a stage full of maybe’s. But this time, I am determined to find the yes or the no to these maybe’s.

I haven’t found my purpose yet, but I know I will. I may not find fulfillment with what I am doing right now, but I won’t stop in seeking things that will make me feel like I did something really worthy, and that I made a good influence.

One day, maybe sooner or maybe later, I’ll share something in this blog, finally saying, “I’ve found it.”


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Marching into a Better Year

Hollah! I turned a year older last month and looking back, I believe the #TheClverJourney was one helluva ride. It’s been happy, sad, exciting, anxious, frustrating, fulfilling, and everything in between. And although I’m not yet sure if I was finally able to conquer my quarter life crises, I think I deserve a tap on the back for making it through this far without having a major breakdown. Hooray for that!

The next number is a whole new chapter, and I am all into investing to self-love – mind, body, soul. I recently leaned into healthy eating habits and availed a gym membership. Honestly, it’s all giving me a positive outlook and mood every day. I guess endorphins really do their work, huh? 🙂

It’s already the third of twelve 2019 months, and although there were already twists and turns earlier this year, I know that the rest of the year still has lot to offer, and the best and worst are yet to come.

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I am soooo ready to embrace the beauty of living. To lesser kicks of anxiety and to more hacks of bravery, yes? Let’s do this! 🙂


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To My Strongest Year Yet

The pattern looks nice, probably a crossover of a mermaid tail and coffee beans. Everybody’s probably minding their own business, and so do I. Honestly, I’m finding it hard to make a good intro so I’ll just cut the shit and say, happy new year, dearest!

My Instagram and Facebook posts would probably tell you that last year was my best year yet, which, I could say, is true. But just like any other insta-perfect shot or reaction-worthy caption, my best year yet was nowhere near perfect.

2018’s been great. I had a number of local travels and VIP concerts that are quite worthy to make myself feel validated. But probably Newton’s third law of motion simply just applies to a phase of your life in one way or another. A rise for a fall, a backward for a forward, a stop or a pause for a go, and maybe a yes for a no. You get the picture.

2018 wasn’t just about riding a plane, seeing the clouds, enjoying the sea, or rocking with my favorite bands. It was about self discovery, and how I’ve realized what really makes me happy and free. It was about telling the 15 year-old me that I must be proud of the woman I have become 10 years later, because my silver year became the gateway of a living dream. Or so I thought.

While almost everybody was anticipating their colorful plot twist when 2018 was about to end, I got mine, just not the colorful one that everyone, including me, was hoping for. Just like in books, not all plot twists are good.

There are probably darker plot twists out there, or worse, some falling action. But here’s the deal I made with myself, which is really easier said than done: it’s still about trying to see the beauty in order to live it well. Shit happens to anyone anyway, so yeah, here’s a toast of tequila because the best and worst are probably yet to come.

And just like that, the first month of 2019 would be over in a few hours. Now I ask myself, how’s the first 31 days of 365? I swear I don’t know, but by Day 365, I hope I could say that 2019 is my strongest year yet.


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Five Things I’ve Realized When I Began to Embrace the “I’m a few minutes away from the office” Life

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It’s been more than a month since I moved to my place in the Metro. I’m less than 15 minutes away from the office, far beyond what I used to travel when I still go home daily. I used to spend one to two hours travel time commuting ever since I began working, and since I have experienced the convenience of living near my work place, I’m not sure if I’m ever gonna want to leave that life again.

Living near my workplace has made me realize a lot of things, and I’m going to share five of them here. 🙂

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