Late last year, I cursed committing. I’ve gone to few dates this year after my Holiday Break-up in December last year and sworn to myself that I wouldn’t let anyone get into my way and destroy my focus again. Still, as of this moment, I would say that I’m still afraid of getting into a relationship because I guess I’m still not ready for a real-time pain [again].
Don’t get me wrong. Not that I’m a man-hater or I don’t want to commit at all – my friend, I still want to believe that there’s somebody out there who will make me feel that everything’s gonna be worth it. Maybe not just yet. Not now. Or maybe I haven’t met that person yet. Or maybe I have already met him but the right timing is yet to come – and it’s not
This year has been a full-time trial and error dating process for me, and having been open to going out with some guys for some months, I have realized that I’m definitely not into games anymore (so I finally decided to stop seeing people for awhile); I have discovered what I want when it comes to finding a partner. It’s not just about the first impressions, because I fall for the heart, mind and soul; secondary for the body and the physical all. I know better now. I know I deserve someone who wouldn’t give up on me. I know I deserve someone who would meet me halfway.